i have irritating eyebags♥'
today is a lame day for me .
i didnt have much sleep . i only slept for 2 hours .
slept at 8 am and woke up at 10 am .
i have been having only 3-4 hours of sleep this past week .
i guess i had too much thinking to do .
and now my eyebags are begging me to SLEEP right away .!
but how to sleep when my mind is not at all calm .?
i hate this feeling . it makes me feel so useless .
mas tkde mood ., too much to explain here .
in short ., disappointments always happen now and then .
life is still a long way to go ., and i still have a lot more
obstacles to go thru . i wonder if i'd make it to the end .
i wonder for how much longer i could stay this strong .
im a normal human being ., and i get weak easily at times too .
its just a matter of seconds now that i feel like
bursting to tears again . this sucks a lot .
ya Allah ., keep me strong . give me the strength that
my mum has . i want to be as strong as her .
she's been able to go thru a lot of painful things for the
past 30 yrs . im struggling to hold on just for her sake .
all these while ., i've been putting up with a lot of nonsense
bcoz of her . i struggled to kick my bad habits for her .
whatever i do ., its for those eyes ya Allah .
keep me strong pls ., i love her more than anything
else in this world .
friendships ., relationships ., education .
everything failed . how i wish i could run away from everyone
forever . but i just couldnt . i dont know how to
describe my feelings right now . i wanna pour it all out .
but i just cant . maybe one day ., everything will be
solved if only i have the heart to do smth that will end everything .
i dont trust men ., i dont trust anyone just anyhow .,
and i dont trust my own instincts now .
i cant cope anymore and i cant concentrate on any
1 thing anymore . im bursting already .
AKU TKDE MOOD ., sorry if i hurt anyone's
feelings today . maafkan mas kay .? :c
pictures at grandma's crib with cousin earlier
the end ., TOODLES
MASgilerr signing out .!
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